Sunday, June 17, 2012

When Love consumes you !

It was an early morning when I woke up suddenly, not really awake and with a heavy head and realised the sun is yet to rise and the moon is about to set. I felt as if I was in the middle of no where, not able to understand what was happening exactly.It was raining, yes it was raining and yet there was a pin drop silence I could feel.I could not recall at all what had happened before I fell asleep. After few seconds, I stood up and tried to walk and when I did so I asked myself, what am I walking towards to, where do I want to go, what do I need and why am I so terrified.It was not a good feeling, a tear rolled down my eye and I felt pain, anger, sadness and discomfort and as I took my first step I saw you standing in front of me like a ray of light and hope.. Even before I could gather my senses and really wake up, my tears turned into a smile and I came running to you, hugged you so tight like all I have got is you and you hugged me back, held me and kept me close to you for a while and there was a sunrise falling on my eyes. I woke up and realised that we had a fight last night. We hurt each other so badly and cried a lot because we thought that this was the end of it. We spoke, we tried and we gave up and sat in silence as well. It was a long night and at some point I was too tired and fell asleep and you watched me sleep. I could remember you whispering something into my ears, something like, "I am leaving". Those words had transformed into a nightmare which took me to a world of sadness. Even it was momentary for a few minutes but I could exactly feel what would it be without you . Neither you could leave nor I could let you go because we never imagined a world without each other. We get hurt, we cry but in the end we can rely only on each other. This is how you feel when Love consumes you. There is a little danger, there is a little adventure. There is passion and there is acceptance. When Love consumes you, you feel that fire which can either burn you if you go against its flames or it can give you warmth, heat on those cold snowy days. Being in love is different but when love consumes you, you feel different. you feel complete, you feel divine.

The Guys' Rules­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ !! ;)


 Finally , the guys' side of the story.


( I must admit, it's pretty good.)
We always hear " the rules"
From the female side.

Now here are the rules from the male side.Please note.. these are all numbered "1"
ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.
1. Shopping is NOT a sport.
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem.
See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry,we meant the other one
1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really .
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as CRICKET, the shotgun formation,or golf.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
1. Thank you for reading this.

1. All points are marked as point no. (1), becoz all points are equally Important.
There is no thing as More Important or less Important.

Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a laugh.
Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them a bigger laugh :) :)

Source - some social networking website.

Where is the finish line?


 "See, we are all middle class people. Education only is your property. We do not have much money and all. Study properly and get into a good job. Father and I both wanted good education. We only didn’t get, at least we want you to study well and shine.”


If mother is doing blackmail like this means, what else I can do? See I know ki I also have dreams. Yes boss, I want to play cricket for India, it is a big dream for me. But think practically. Life is not a game ok? I have to have good “education” first.


So I took science group. Arey how can I go and tell ki, “No no, I want to take commerce group”? I am not from Delhi man! Then mother is pointing to that stupid good-for-nothing secretly-adult-movie-watching cousin and saying, “He is also in the same class, no? Then how come he always scores more than you?”


That he himself does not know. I am also studying so hard to score “centum” in board exam. One two-mark question I made a mistake that too it was not from the textbook. What I can do for that?


See boss, I told you before, I want to play cricket for India. I also want to play guitar like mad. I want to write books. I want to take photography. Arey I thought ki, I can do all this once I join engineering college. I can be professionally qualified and side-by-side I can do what I always wanted to do. I thought ki, once I start playing well in the college team, slowly I can make it to the national team. Once I join the college, I will have all the time in the world to play.


Best is the engineering college. They didn’t have any cricket team itself! How the hell was I supposed to know that? They only told ki they have 100-acre campus with excellent facilities and 100% placement record and all. Now they are asking us to do Paper Presentation all the time! For 3 years I didn’t understand itself what that means. Industrial visits, unit tests, pre-model, model exams are there and life is very busy in engineering college.


Everybody is running like a mad dog. We are all middle-class people only. My parents have taken so much loan for the studies. “In front of relatives, you have to come up in life and show them”, mother is always saying. So I decided ki life is definitely not a game. Passion and all ok, but I also have to run. Once I finish professional course, I can do what I want, nobody can question me then na?


Boss, in today’s world anybody can become engineer ok? How can I stop with only one degree yaar? See let me be very honest. I am very patriotic. I don’t want to go to US and all. So I am doing MBA here itself. What is there? Everybody is saying ki MBA with science background is a very very rare combination. If I have such strong degrees as backup, I can boldly try out new things. I can even start playing guitar after finishing B-School. I will be able to apply my management skills and even find an good investor for my albums no?


What you are saying? Campus recruitment is going on. Everybody is attending it! How can I not attend these interviews man? Starting salary itself is in six-digits! This is a golden opportunity for people like us in the middle-class to come out of the rat-race! Once I earn for two years, I would have closed all my loans and I can write or sing or dance or do whatever I like. It is my life and who will stop me then?


Boss, what I told before and all forget. Now home loan is also there (it provides solid tax benefits man!), if I say I want to quit job means my mother will go mad, especially when I am about to get married. This is the time to earn ok? If I think of enjoying now and doing what I like means later on I only have to suffer in life. What to do? We are all middle class people. We have to be happy with what we have.


See I only am not able to do what I want. But all that I missed I will definitely make my child do it. It is a promise.

Source - http://thelocalteaparty.com/post/7122903456

Friday, September 24, 2010

Monday Blues & Friday Glue

TGIF .. Pheeww goes my gtalk status and sometimes Face book status also, actually very rarely as the FB status, I like to put "never put before" FB statuses to get more likes and more comments of course, anyways so yes.. TGIF.. ! This acronym holds a very very special place in the hearts of all those people who work Monday to Friday, 9 to 7.Its like that short term dream that every one of us see when we come to work on Monday. On a Friday, everything looks so beautiful so meaningful. You feel like interacting with those annoying people in your office who have brain to mouth filter totally malfunctioned ! You discuss your weekend plans with your friends, colleagues and even if you dont have a plan.Come'on it’s a Weekend !the greatest plan in itself. Every moment you take a breath, appreciate it’s a Friday, and want it to pass slowly and slowly to enjoy its worth. The noise of people talking loudly in their cubicles turns into the sound of laughter and happiness and you also smile and say to yourself , laugh it’s a Friday. And you announce to the world that "My good mood is brought to you by none other than Mr. Friday". And the joy of saying bye in the evening to the co-workers surpasses every joy.

You drive your way back home singing songs. The traffic looks like a Death Race Arena, everyone sneaking in sometimes from left sometimes right, as if playing hide and seek with me and trust me deadly hide and seek. I look from my rear mirror and wonder where the hell has that biker gone and zoooommm he passes me from the left and i feel annoyed and competitive and pass him at the next signal and feel so proud. Though it’s a different story everybody who reaches home safely feel they have won the race today. Yes Pane’s traffic has one advantage of giving this winner feeling after reaching home from that bloody life challenging traffic.Anyways TGIF !! Yes And i was saying that this traffic which almost kills us everyday also look like a fun fair, That biker who gives you a tough competition everyday is a friend you would like to give a smile on the way. Although make sure he is the same one first !Woohh Friday has magical powers. And you reach home, throw Ur bag here, shoes there, and helmet anywhere.. Ok i am exaggerating. I am a cleanliness freak and nothing on this earth can excite me more than a clean house.. Not even Friday excitement. :) Ok generally you become a little carefree and if even its 8pm in the night you are not afraid to make sudden plans, night outs or even late night movies as it’s a Weekend baby and you can be awake till 7 am on a Saturday morning and then sleep the whole day although we usually dont do that. Saturdays are not for sleeping. Saturday-- if you observe closely says " Sat(isfy) ur day ". Ok it’s my observation.U can have urs. ;) Saturday Parties, Saturday drinking, Saturday pre drinking and then partying, Saturday drinking, partying and again drinking whatever permutation combination it may be, its super fun. You feel above the world like the SMOKE and the world below your feet like the ASH. Though now-a-days there is a German touch to my saturdays.Yes I am learning German.. Ich bin.. Anyways TGIF !! Why i get so distracted by other things.. Yes..And a lil fear of Saturday getting over starts creeping from somewhere. We dont want the Saturday to end. We wish for the world to come to a halt and the moment never goes but nobody listens to us.. Not even God.. He is too sincere to do that. And Sunday comes.

Sunday is a day to be lazy.. Just sleep and eat and sleep and face book and eat again and face book again.. I have realized Face book has become an important part of our lives. My next blog is definitely on it. And we pass every minute of Sunday delicately. And the thought of Monday tomorrow brings a sad smiley on our faces. It’s terrible than the "exam tomorrow" fear. Why do we grow up !! And with a sigh, heavy heart we surrender ourselves to sleep to find that something happened overnight and the office got bowed up :) and realize it was a dream :) .The Monday morning the biker hero who passes us on the road becomes the biker villain again and we reach office to see sad smileys all over except a few nut heads that are eagerly waiting for the Monday to come like a newlywed couple waits for their honeymoon. Did i exaggerate. Well i mean they get turn on by seeing work. How can anybody love to work in a jail like cubicle.!! We ask our coworkers how their weekend was only to tell them how our was.yeah it was rocking, much better than yours, you dumb head.. You dont know how to enjoy a weekend. I am the only person who knows how to party and where to go :) huh . That pride. And we soon realize the looks on his/her face saying you know how to party, I know how to work get your ass back on work madam. And pheeww again the whole vicious circle of Karma starts. Although I am a great believer of Karma excluding office work. :) We think why Monday is so close to Friday and yet Friday is so far from Monday and keep day dreaming about when will the next Friday come so that we can stop sighing, relax a bit, meet friends, enjoy life, forget worries and do what we like and LOL and ROFL and LMAO and say TGIF !

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Listen to the colour of your dreams.

Dreams : The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened.” ... But in reality... Dreams are not something you see when you are asleep, but something which will not let you sleep untill you turn them into reality... We all see dreams.. some dream big, some dream small, some dream good, some dream bad, some dont dream at all and some dream all... but very few of us turn them into a reality.. and why this number is so less.. may be because reality bites.. may be we are afraid to loose our dream if it turns into reality because if it does its  no longer a dream... and because of this many of us step back..  According to me that should not happen.. We should not let our drem live just inside us only.. we should shout out loud and show the world what our dream is... because in the long run.. one who followed his dream will be happy..  In this world of rat races today, we often flow with flow.. Go where the situation takes us, just keep on following what maximum people are doing. and forget to listen to our intutive voice which is constantly telling us what we shoud do but we often ignore it ... we are afraid to face the opposition of the world, the criticism of the successful and ofcourse the failure... We always go behind money, and dont realize that miney might give us many comforts but that inner happiness, that joy will come only after we follow our soul.. A person can become successful by working hard and hard and hard even if its not his dream but he can never be happy in his life... because in every thing he will be accomplishing he tries to find that happiness which will only come if he accomplishes his own dream.. and he tries to fool himself... but ultimately he saturates because there is nothing which can give him that true joy, whatever he does. Most of the people, almost (8 out of 10) i have met are doing something which they dont like at all. They are having a fake smile on their faces, always criticizing the work they are doing. One who enjoys his work doeant work at all because for him his work is his enjoyment, happiness, dream come true... but its really sad to see that hardly few enjoy their work... Man is selfish no doubt about it.. he wants everything fast... but we have to be patient because things that last long come late in ur life after u have had a tough experience, so that u know its value... Water is a normal compound.. a normal drink... it is not that attractive or tempting like cold drinks, hard drinks, lassi, nimbu pani etc.. but when u are really thirsty, only water can quench ur thirst and nothing else can and then we realize its worth.. Our dream may be simple like us, or just like us... but we should not underestimate it.. whatever it is, we should listen to it, take it out, fulfill it, and dream another dream... Simple things put togther make a complete thing... whatever it may be... Life is too short to wait for the situations to be completely stable for you... The moment you dream... should be the moment u start working on it to turn it into reality... because
Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

School Life was much better !!

If given a choice to go back to one of the times of my life.. It wud definitely be my school days :) just thinking about it brings a smile on my face. That time was perfect. One of its kind.. There was nothing like tensions, responsibilities or frustration. The only thing bad was fear of getting slapped by mummy/papa if we didn't scored well, or if we didn't eat well or drank milk :) lol .. getting up in the morning, seeing your mother hugging you, papa reading the newspaper, Daadi doing her prayers.. then mummy shouting.. beta get ready.. brush ur teeth, do potty :) take a bath and get ready.. the breakfast is almost ready.. the clothes(uniform) ironed lying on the bed.. u get ready without the tension of what to wear today.!! then hot served with love breakfast...yummmm delicious.. u would nt have to skip the breakfast because of laziness or because of the confusion of what to eat today !! New varieties along with being fresh would be served to you daily.. and then your tiffin is also ready :) wow.. And u wait for school bus along with your Dad.. And dad giving little pocket money for the day :) 10rs or 20 rs :) and we used to be so happy that we will eat chocolate or chips :) and tease our friends :) and then gossip in the school bus about our teachers, about our neighbours or about rival group. about what everyone has got in their tiffins today :) reaching school.. doing those prayers, pledges, morning news, thought of the day and, PT exercises and then National anthem :) the morning started with a happy heart and nice thoughts :) Then class by class.. Good morning MAM and Good morning SIR :) Reading in the class, Writing essays, "Mam may i go to toilet " :) hahhaha :) and then the favourite period :) Lunch Break :) wow.. All the Gossip of the first five periods..what happened at the last bench.. who got scolded.. who got compliments :) everything.. I remember one uncle chips ka packet and 7 ppl attacking into it. Now you have one chips ka packet and cant finish it by yourself ... maza hi nahi raha khane me.. last 4 periods were boring.. always waiting for the school bell to go... small jokes in the class, or a funny teacher.. whole class would burst out laughing :) those giggling :) it was so much fun.. last period khatam hote hi.. everyone used to run... yeah.... and then reach home.. mummy waiting for you.. now u go tired and nobody is waiting for you.. get up u lazy ass and cook food for yourself... mummy lunch leke aati thi.. kabi kabi apne hatho se khilati thi :) bahut maza aata tha.. then a knap of 1 hr.. what heaven it used to feel :) getting up and doing homework.. and then playing... and so on.. where has all that fun gone now.. Life has become so fast, so irritating.. why cant we always be kids.. okay i know the answer but don't want to know it !! Now there are so many responsibilities.. so many tensions.. so many mixed feelings.. that u always remain entangled i them and loose the time of ur life.. no time for being a kid.. no time for doing things u really like.. where the hell does this time go.. our life now-a-days is surrounded by only a few things.. Laptop, mobile phone, Headphones,Crocin and Daily Planner.. in those times, hum kitna b khate they we used to stay fit and healthy and now whatever we eat is unhealthy... I really miss my school life alot.. i really miss that time.. it was the time when i was myself. When i had time for everything.. It seems jabse bade hue hai, tabse tensions double ho gaye hai.. huhhhhhh !! Need to go back to that time again..

Thursday, April 2, 2009

A Thought ...

Before we were born,a whole society of storytellers were already here.The storytellers who were here before us taught us how to be human.First they told us what we are--a boy or a girl,then they told us who we are and who we should or should not be... They taught us how to be a woman or a man.They told us how to be a proper woman,a decent woman,a strong man, a brave man... They gave us a name and told us the role we would play in their story.They prepared us to live in the human jungle to compete with one another,to impose our will,to fight against our own kind.They filled us with knowledge and of course we believed them.From the storytellers around us,we learned how to create our own story.

By exploring the story that we create,I discovered that the story has a voice.You can call it "thinking" if u want..I call it "the voice of knowledge" because its telling you everything you know.. Its always trying to make sense out of everything.That voice is always there.It never stops.Its not even real but you hear it.It can also be called the liar who lives in your head.

Rule No. 1: Now happiness will come when you listen to your story but don't believe it because now you know that its mostly fiction.When you hear the voice in your head,don't take it personally....

Rule No. 2: Don't believe anybody else.You know if u lie to yourself,surely other people lie to themselves and if they lie to themselves,they will lie to you also.
You can change your life by refusing to believe your own lies.Start with the main lies that limit the expression of your happiness and your love.If you take your faith away from the lies,they loose their power over you.Then you can recover your faith and invest it in different beliefs.If you stop believing in lies, your whole life changes just like magic.You will be free of fear,drama, and conflict.This is the absolute truth and i cannot put it more simply than that....